AFTER CPR STOPS | Marta Christov


When you call my husband

don’t say she didn’t suffer

I wanted too much to continue living—

and suffering is part of it.

Don’t tell him how, in this last hour

you cracked my ribs

and sent my body levitating

with the shocks.

Say: we did everything.

She is at peace.

Her heart gave up its electricity

but not its lust for life.

Marta Christov is a practicing nephrologist in Westchester County, as well as a research scientist studying phosphate regulation in health and disease.  Christov has a particular interest in making science and medicine easier to understand for her patients and the general public.  She is currently using poetry and essays to reflect on her experiences as a caregiver and a patient family member.