Lisa Jacobs’ story, Doctoring and Disobedience, was gratifyingly evocative, reminding me of promises I had made to myself as a nursing student and then a psychiatric nurse practitioner. Trying to satisfy both one’s own ethics while following the wishes of the family or the legal rights of a guardian makes for often difficult treatment decisions.
Read moreFear in the face of Uncertainty: A Reflection about Patients and Medical Emergencies by Katrina Kostro
Whatever the diagnosis or prognosis, being a patient often includes elements of fear.
Read moreHidden Trauma: A Reflection on Artist Inés Ixierda’s “Fasciotomy” by Karen Germain
In my non-fiction story “Weight,” I explore the complicated relationship that I had with my aunt, as I was her caretaker in the final years of her life. My aunt suffered from a shocking injury when her left femur bone snapped as she was getting her morning newspaper.
Read moreOur Mission to Give Voice: A Physician-Poet’s Reflection on Speech and Human Connection by Katrina Kostro
Speech is a crucial element in human connection. Even more so these days, during the COVID-19 pandemic, when physical touch has become largely forbidden. One can imagine, then, the tremendous loss associated with aphasia – the loss of ability to understand or express speech.
Read moreThe Body Politic: Fashioning our own earthly justice in a challenging time by Adam Lalley
In the short story “Good As New” by Andrew Taylor-Troutman in the Spring 2020 Intima, the site of a teenager’s accidental death becomes a healing destination. At the little white cross beneath an oak tree, cancer is cured and the wounded throw off their wheelchairs. But when a line of pilgrims stretches into the next county, the miracle dries up.
Some, but not all, are restored. The inequity mirrors the disparities of our very own bodies— our health, even the lengths of our lives, are doled out unequally. There’s no earthly justice in our bodies.
Read moreSeeing is Believing: Reflecting on Miracles by Andrew Taylor-Troutman
A reflection on “My Grandpa” by Meghan Wang (Poetry / Spring, 2013)
I see his body, but I do not see him
So begins Meghan Wang’s poem and her words cut to the core of the grief I have known in watching an aged loved one. I have lost people before their actual deaths. I know that sight is a metaphor for understanding. That is the double-meaning of the poem’s line:
It’s hard to see him like this
Holding Vigil: The privilege of putting death off for another day by Elizabeth Lanphier
Stella’s speaker is running from patient to patient, hoping to catch some sleep in the call room; for my speaker it is only the mind that is running, keeping her awake.
Read moreSurrendering Trust in One’s Life is Just Another Stickie Note in Our Outlook Calendars: A Clinician’s Reflection by Jordan Teitelbaum
Taking care of people in the Operating Room is more than ‘just a job’ for both surgeons and anesthesiologists.
Read moreSpeaking of Speech by James Wyshynski
Reflection on the Desert By Elisabeth Preston-Hsu
Ting Guo’s poem “Vanishing Point” published in Fall 2016 was one of the first works I read on Intima and I’ve re-read it every few months since then. She is a lovely writer. We move with the narrator trying to make the best of a hum-drum cruise with family, flowing into imagery of water and desert to small, prickly wellsprings of cacti.
Read moreBeing a Patient: Coping with the Loss of Control and Privacy in a Hospital by Rebecca Grossman-Kahn
Patients often feel unexpectedly confined in the hospital.
Read moreA Physician's Response in an Emergency: Humility Complements Competence by Rachel Fleishman
Watching a medical emergency as a physician who is not functioning as a leader or caretaker unearths discomfort, a mingling of denied identity with humility. And it is from this vantage that we can harness the power of narrative medicine to create space for reflection, to make sense of medicine and how it unfolds.
Read moreOn the Sacrosanctity of the Body Chambers by Michal Coret
A medical student balances the duties of respect and learning in the anatomy lab.
Read moreWhen Treatment Takes Over: Thoughts on Two Visual Artworks by Simona Carini
Poetry and art explore the deeper emotional dimensions of cancer.
Read morePilgrimages at Nightfall: A Reflection on How We All Have to Help Each Other by Ariel Boswell
Michael Fredrick Geisser’s “Night Trip” (Fall 2015 Intima) takes place at the same time as my poem “Late Night,” that dark lonely hour when one should be asleep.
Read moreThe Worthwhile Art of Careful Listening by Hui-Wen Sato
We live in a world and line of work where so many voices compete for our attention. But as we consider the potential for hope and help that exists within our efforts to connect meaningfully with our patients, we are fueled with greater generosity of spirit even as we acknowledge our own limitations as healthcare providers, as humans.
Read moreOn the Value of Toys and Bridges: How Healers Make Connections by Samuel LeBaron
In my story “Bling” (Spring 2020 Intima), an adolescent’s “toys” create a connection that reawakens her joy and spirit for a brief, crucial moment.
Read moreAging and Memory from Two Poetic Perspectives: A Reflection by Larry Oakner
As I age into my late sixties, I’m experiencing the blips of short-term memory loss that are common for many people my age. I find the experience a little frightening and disconcerting because I have always had great recall throughout my life, with deep detail and clarity of memories, right down to the emotions at the time.
Read moreDiscerning Different Shades of Grief by Jeffrey Millstein, MD
In my essay, “Remembrance,” I discovered my own grief for a recently deceased long-time patient while continuing to care for her widowed husband. John Jacobson’s piece “Now and Then” (Fall 2018 Intima) brought me deep into the chasm of a different type of grief, from loss of someone who was, and to a more attuned place from where to offer empathy.
Read moreHow Nature Calms Us in Challenging Times: A reflection on Sara Awan’s “Twins in Yellow Hats” by Katharine Lawrence
I was introduced to Mary Oliver by my grandmother, who always kept the most fantastic gardens. These two women instilled in me a deep appreciation for nature; it is something I draw from regularly to keep me grounded, calm and grateful, particularly during stressful periods. During the COVID-19 pandemic, I was repeatedly struck by the small beauties of nature I encountered while working and sheltering in New York City.
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